Old Blog – November 2002

PERSONAL ODDBALL ART STUFFI really need to put more into my personal site. Sometimes I stumble across an exceptional personal site and it just makes you see what really can be done. Here is the site I’m thinking of today. French Toast Girl

Make sure to read the Adventures of Chalking. I linked to that in my Bewitching Vagabond column at BackWash. I just love oddball art stuff. 🙂

DEADLY DULLTalking about ourselves seems so boring at times. I think it’s that inferiority complex thing. Everything some one else is doing seems so much more interesting and worthwhile that whatever we are doing ourselves.

My sister is having her second baby on Thursday. That’s my biggest news and it’s not even about me, directly.

I have a hundred things I need to be doing but this cold is sucking the life out of me. I coughed so much at work I was feeling light headed. Then, in the car I coughed so much there was actual leakage in another area. I had to go home instead of taking a trip to Chapters for an hour after work. Being sick really messes things up.

NEW ASCII COLLECTIONI’m working on HerCorner tonight. I got the OK to put up an ASCII art gallery there. I had it already started on my personal site. But, I’m moving it to HerCorner for the traffic boost. The ASCII art part of my site has always done well, about 200 hits a week. I really need to get back to doing more ASCII. It must be boring seeing the same stuff every time they come.

LOOKING FOR A BEDIt’s after 1:00 am. If not for the insanity I would already be in bed. I work at 9:00 am and it’s not a short day like today. I’ve washed the uniform all I need to do is log off the Internet. Silly me, I seem to have forgotten how to do that.

THINKING HAPPY THOUGHTSI can’t keep denying it, I’ve got a cold. It seems to be in my throat of all places. Work won’t be so fun if I keep coughing like this. At least my period finished.

I’m working 9:00 – 3:00 tomorrow. I think I will miss Sarah’s baby shower. Her in-law family have arranged it all. The only thing I needed to do is show up. I was all set to enjoy just showing up and seeing how they do a shower. But, now I’m going to miss all or most of it. I would like to come over for the last hour but I’ve been so tired after work that I don’t even want to put my feet on the gas to get the car going anywhere right away. So, I’ve been debating with myself, trying to decide if I should send an email letting the hostess know I might make it or should I just get out of denial and admit to both of us that I won’t make it for the shower. I do want to go too. I just don’t think I will still want to go as much after six hours of walking around being nice and trying not to cough on everyone.

Oh well, that’s standard. Life gets in the way of itself all the time.

I am liking the job, did I already say that? I like helping people and so far there has only been one grumpy customer. Most people say they don’t need help but about half of them pause and then ask me about something. I really liked Friday when I found a lady a pair of exactly the pants she wanted for half the price she said she was willing to pay for them. She was impressed. 🙂

The car is getting more cracked. While I was driving around on Thursday I heard a little noise and looked at just the right time to see the crack in my front window grow another inch or so. I hope it lasts until Spring. If it gets right from the bottom to the top or sides will the whole thing fall apart? Definitly not a happy thought.

I watched Robot Wars on TV tonight. It was great. I enjoyed it more than I thought I would. Best of all was the comraderie between the players. They hammed it up a bit but overall they were cheering for each other even though they would like to have their creation win, of course. The big winner of the show was a bot called Pussycat. I’ll watch again, if I happen to see it in the TV listings.

Almost time for me to shower and hop into bed. Last night I went to bed early and this morning I was up by 7:00, just in time for getting ready for work. But, I had the day off. Not so for tomorrow morning. I need to buy an alarm clock. The clock radio I bought it supposed to have one but it isn’t going off. Kind of an essential thing for an alarm clock.

BackWash isn’t working this afternoon or evening. I hope it isn’t being hacked or something worse. The main page is not coming up at all. I’ve never seen that happen before. I did update Kids BackWash, that works. But, it has a different domain.

FIRST DAYNot a real first day since it was just an orientation. We toured the store, signed papers, got a uniform (golf shirt) and found out what we are doing. I am a floor service person. Sounds great so far. From what I know I walk around and see if anyone needs help. If they are looking for something I take them there, offer to show them little extras to go with their planned purchase, etc. Basically it’s my job to be friendly and outgoing. How hard can that be? I guess we’ll see.

Anyway, I hemmed up the black pants I bought for work. So I’m pretty much ready to start tomorrow at 9:00am. If that turns out to be my regular shift I’d be happy. I still don’t know that part for sure.

Of course, my period started today too. It does seem to have great timing. I’ve heard it’s due to stress that you get your period at the worst times. But, I don’t believe that theory. I’ve been under a lot of stress and it stopped completely for several months. I was sure I had early menopause. I began to feel extremely hopeless. That’s a horrible thing to feel. Now, I really understand suicide, what goes through someone’s mind and what drives them to take that last step. It’s not feeling sad, feeling you can’t cope, etc. It really is a lack of hope.

Enough of that. Just now when things seem to be getting better I don’t want to rehash the past few months.

The little car is great. That crack down the front window IS growing. I look at it every day, how can I miss it after all. But, other than that I am really starting to love my car. I talk to it now and then. No name yet, I haven’t found one that has that feeling of total rightness.

THE NEWSIt’s been a long time since I updated. Things have changed, as things do. I bought a car, a Ford Tempo (93) for about $2,000. On Friday I heard back from Zellers, I got a job! Tomorrow afternoon I’m going in for an orientation session and then I will find out just what I’m doing and when.

For HerCorner I am lagging behind from October. In part due to the server move, in part due to just not getting two articles done on time.

My sister, Grace, has moved out to Vancouver. Men were here over the weekend to move her stuff out there. She had it all really well packed and ready so it just took them half an hour at the most to load it up and get on their way.

Not much other news. I’m tired tonight. I seem to be tired every night these past couple of months. I guess I’ve run low on my night owl-ness.