I'm tired. I did some pay day shopping today. Bought new boots for winter, men's boots cause they fit nicer and give toe wiggling room. Also, you can buy a size 7 instead of an 8. Silly, but kind of nice.

I bought some things for my sister's mother-in-law's birthday party on Saturday. I have Saturday off!!! That doesn't happen often. Nice to be going to a party for Rhoda. She is a lovely lady, very generous of heart. It surprises me that someone can be like that. People say I'm nice but I would never be as nice and generous as Rhoda is. Sometimes I think I'm too broken to be that open any more.

My Mother is doing the controlling thing again. If I opted for a lobotomy she could just sweep me along and I'd do everything the way she wants, when she wants and how she wants. If only I could stop all these urges to try to be a person. How silly of me. Ugh! How can you tell your Mother she's overly controlling? Especially when I have no where else to go? Of course, I can always be that bag lady I know I can be. I'm already in training for the part. Just look at my car. Full of stuff my Mother decided to get rid of for me. How kind, how can I ever .... I don't even know. Too bad you can't just stop things for awhile and think. Time just keeps flowing on, you're really just a pebble in it's way.