Everyone and everything in your life is some kind of responsibility. Remembering birthdays, maintaining friendships, dusting, carefully placing so they don't fall off shelves... endless.

I dream, day dream, of being in the world after everyone else is gone. Maybe a virus that didn't affect me. Maybe they all just left in a spaceship. The how or why isn't too important. Just the alone. By myself in the world.

I'd also like endless time, without a lot of aging. I could find myself a place at the top of a high building. I imagine it has a balcony with curtains billowing on the breeze from the lake, maybe the ocean. Inside I have everything I need. Would I get tired of too much time? Possibly. It would be very quiet without people.

Things still need to be taken care of. But, more temporarily than people. Things don't have the same expectations, or needs.

If I could find a way to keep the electricity on, that would be good. Not likely, but good. Even without electric power I could still do most of the things I'd want to do. Reading in the daylight. But, I would miss the Internet, looking for whatever idea comes into my head. Its so easy to find something about anything on the Internet.

I'm not sure what else I'd really want to do, alone like that. If I could also be slim I'd try on clothes. Probably get out my sewing machine and learn to use it instead of hand sewing everything, and then design and make my own clothes. I've always got ideas for clothing designs.

Lots of things I'd like to write too. But, would it be the same with no one else to read any of it? I could write and write and write without caring what anyone would think. Some how that feels just too open ended.

Anyway, that's enough day dreaming for today. Someone once said I wouldn't really like being entirely alone like that. Maybe. We all depend on each other in so many ways, like having someone keep the electricity on. But, its a lot of responsibility. For me. Others don't seem to feel it at all and just go on as if they were already alone in the world.