From Blog Talkers: Heart. What is close to your heart? Does heart disease run in your family? Would you say your heart is in good shape? Would you ever consider donating your heart after passing away? Why or why not?

I'm keeping my heart packed away in tin foil. It's been battered, bruised and broken enough for awhile. Not that I'm closed off entirely but I'm worn out from trying to be as giving and open as I used to be. A heart needs a few calluses if it's going to survive.

I would not donate anything if I passed away. I believe in reincarnation as a recycling process and all of us will be just a body (meat) when we die. Souls or whatever that element is, get passed along to become something else. But, still, I have the feeling that what was me on the outside should stay that way. Worms can feast on my remains but it just seems strange for someone else to be wearing my heart, my eyes, etc. Not a selfish thing just seems that something of me should be left private, not given away to someone else. I would feel very weird about having someone else's heart. I think I would rather not do that at all.

Have you ever looked at your hand and felt it was not really your hand? I have. It was extremely eerie. Suddenly I couldn't trust my own hand and it felt detached from the rest of me.

Blog Talkers: Talking about Love

Love. What does love mean to you? Do you feel like you have found love? Are you still looking? Do you believe in love at first sight? Why or why not? Why do you think people try so hard to find love?

Love is something you build over time and being together and caring about someone. I think there is love at first sight between family members, a new baby and parents. I don't believe that really happens between two people. It might seem that way. But love is deeper than lust or affection. I love my family, in spite of good and bad in the past. I love them for all sorts of reasons. I can be furious with them and still love them. The love is not a part of whatever is going on in the present. It's deeper. I don't understand how Mothers and daughters, sons and Fathers and sisters and brothers can not speak to each other for years over some trivial thing. It seems a very shallow and selfish and extremely silly thing to me.

I've never been in love, I thought I was. I was married and then divorced from a man who said he loved me. I met others who said the same but had no trouble leaving me over small things. Love is a word misused, abused and thrown around when a guy wants sex, not love. I want a lot more than sex. I can have sex without a man in the room. As good as I am at that you'd think I'd love myself more. I'm working on it, the loving myself part.

I do think that you have to at least be working at loving yourself before someone else can love you too. How can you trust someone who says they love you unless you see yourself as someone who can be loved?

Blog Talkers
Winter. What do you like the most about winter? What do you like the least? How does your schedule change during the winter months?

I think I like the snow most about winter. I like how it makes all the mess and muck of Autumn go away to be replaced by a fresh, sparkling white blanket. I like how snow will fall and coat every last branch and twig on every tree. It's very pretty when you aren't freezing outside waiting for the bus. It gets less pretty when the bus is running late due to snow storms, blizzards and such. That is what I like the least, being cold and stuck waiting outside for a bus.

I wish my schedule could change over the winter. I still have to go to work, buy groceries and all those other regular things. This winter I am car-less so getting out for anything fun isn't happening as often. But, that should change in the Spring when I will get the driver's license sorted out and take the road test (again). Just hate paying money for the silly thing and feeling that the government is rubbing their hands in glee just waiting for a sucker like me.

Still kind of aggravates me that I had a full license and shouldn't have to be doing all of this over again. It's not like I lost my license for drinking and driving or reckless driving of any other kind. So unfair... :( Plus, I miss driving, even without the whole snow and cold thing.

From BlogTalkers: If you could tell your boss one thing without any consequences, and without profanity, what would it be?

We need some positive feedback about the calls we take. The usual feedback only comes when there is something wrong. I always feel like "what did I do THIS time" whenever I get weekly feedback. It's discouraging and I feel I am not really making any progress. Then I wonder why it matters, really.

From BlogTalkers:

Motivated by the fear of harassment claims, many companies now prohibit men and women from meeting one-on-one inside of offices or conference rooms that do not have a window to an outside hallway or area where others can see into the room. What do you think about that? Good move because it protects everyone involved, or an unwarranted overreaction driven by nothing more than overreaching morals and fear?

Kind of a nice swing back to old fashioned respect for each other I think. Part of me thinks it is silly that men can't be expected to behave. After all, why should women be kept in quarantine just because we are female.

Yet, men have proven that only some of them do have control over their own morals. So, maybe a throw back to old fashioned ways is not a bad idea. We already keep children confined to school buses and getting rides to and from school. We don't let them go out on their own as easily as we once would have. That is interesting as the old fashioned way was not to think much about what the kids were doing, their safety.

Anyway, I'm kind of undecided and yet I can see that it might have a good point. It might bring back more old fashioned traditions.

Anything is possible.