I'm moving back to Ontario this week. One thing I especially want to do is visit the grave where my Grandparents are buried. It's been a long time since I was able to say hello, buy them a Tim Hortons coffee and tell them what's going on in my life.

How would it have been for the pioneers who put their family in a small cemetery right on their farm land. Back in those days it may have been comforting to know you had some family not far away, not across an ocean or a country.

You can still see those old limestone cemeteries, some still have the traditional fence and pine trees. I assume the current family living and farming there are related to those buried there. But, I guess it's not necessarily so. People move in all sorts of ways and directions.

Not so different from flowers that start by their own roots or seeds each season. They only have a short time to be around, enjoy the sun and rain and leave the Earth with fresh air to breathe. They grow, flower, go to seed and then fade away to decompose under the snow. A lot of changes in just a short time.

I guess that's what I'm doing too, going back to check with my roots. I want them to know that I'm doing ok, not wasting the life they had a part in giving me and I haven't forgotten to miss them.

The divorce is all but done. We have a couple of weeks to wait for it to be final, just the tail end of six months of being separated. On July 2nd, between Canada Day on July 1st and America Day on July 4th, I will be legally divorced.

We went out driving today. I thought to go to Frankfurt since that was where we started and had some nice times together. We did drive through there but decided to go to Benton instead. Todd treated for a lunch out at the buffet. We did a little shopping and wandered on our way back. We impulsively stopped off for movie rentals. So far we watched the latest Musketeers movie. It was ok, not making it into the best though.

Nair didn't work all that well. Although it got rid of most of the hair it left me patchy so I used a razor after the shower to get rid of the patches of hair. Maybe I didn't put it on thick enough. I'd be willing to try it again. I still have more than half the bottle left I think. It does smell a little strong, not unbearable and it is nice for leaving my legs softer feeling. The razor usually leaves me scratchy feeling. Also, I did have an easier time just showering it off than I do when I try to use the gel and razor in the shower.

I would like to know what effect it has on your fingernails if you use it for a long time. Since you are spreading it by hand a lot of it gets on and around your fingernails.

I'm not a big hair removal fan. I only shave my legs if I have to. But last week I saw some thing in WalMart which is supposed to remove hair without shaving, ripping or melting my skin either. It's Nair 3 in 1. So I'm going to give it a try today. The plan was to use it just on my calves but now that hair that grows under my belly button is looking like a good place to get rid of some hair too.

Yesterday we went to the farmers market in Carbondale. I bought 2 packages of Mennonite cookies (molasses and sour cream) and this morning I finished the last of them. I hope I can work off some of these cookies this summer when I'm at the pool.

I'm linking to this article about organizing inside your car. I'm going to be getting my first car and I can always use more organization. I'm hoping my car won't fall into the chaos of almost everything else around me. Anyway, I'm including the link for my next Bewitching Vagabond column. Maybe I will get a couple of other car related things.

I never did write about the auction. It took two nights and at some points wasn't very interesting. Mainly this was because so many people didn't show up to be auctioned and others didn't show up to bid on them. Auction by proxy isn't fun to watch. I bought 4 men altogether, but I only kept three. One I traded for one of the others. The one I traded for seemed interesting but when I started talking to him a bit I was less sure. In the end men on IRC are really all the same. I think typing does something to their brain cells. You could probably make some version of that joke about men thinking with one head or the other, but never both.

Anyway, I did buy 3 men and at some point I will spend an hour amusing myself with them, in theory. In reality I will have to find some way to entertain them. I might just skip it since I have zero interest in cyber or virtual sex, same for phone sex, trading pics or any of the other stuff that it's popular to do. I would like to meet someone to begin a relationship with but I know that is highly unlikely on IRC or any kind of Internet chat. If you can't meet them face to face you really don't know who they are. The Internet works well as a way to find them and get a preview but I'm not even sure about that any more. People put on a face online, they may think they are more themselves, less intimidated, but it seems to me they are putting on a show and the real person could be someone else, completely different.

The whole pic trading thing does bug me. Men (probably women too but I don't encounter them in the same way) collect pictures as a way of putting notches in their bedposts. They don't care who you are, what you think or feel. Before they even know your name they are asking for your pic. Why? Because they only have 1043 and really hope to hit 2000 by the end of the month. Just as men used to collect phone numbers in a little black book. Cyber man collects image files. I actually do have a picture of myself scanned but I almost never give it out and when asked for it I tell them I don't have one.

I can't believe it's already this close to noon. No wonder I'm getting hungry, I skipped breakfast. At least I did have a shower this morning. I have one thing accomplished for the day. I have so much packing to do and I'm being very bad about procrastinating with it. I think I just hate moving and not really knowing where I am going to or if I'm going to anything at all. What 37 year old woman wants to move back to her parent's house, even if it is just a couple of weeks.

Before I get into another tail spin about why do I always fail at everything I'm going to make soup and get offline to phone my brother for his birthday today.

On the list today: updating HerCorner (for the whole month if I possibly can) updating Sandcastles and Dreamcatchers at Kids BackWash, packing, packing, packing, packing and more packing.

On the menu today: Campbell's Split Pea Soup, the last of the roasted peanuts and coffee starting off hot but usually drunk when cold.

On my mind today: words I like. I'm thinking to make a whole webpage up of words like serendipity, bewitch, beguile, bewilder, etc. Then there are things I like or am getting into like: typography, cartography, Paint Shop Pro, CSS, Lotus Notes, crazy quilting, walking as an exercise, yet more gardening and growing of plant life, old traditions and cultures, Paganism and city building games, nature, arts and crafts and etc. This list could go on all day but, I have a whole list of things to do.