I'm tired. I did some pay day shopping today. Bought new boots for winter, men's boots cause they fit nicer and give toe wiggling room. Also, you can buy a size 7 instead of an 8. Silly, but kind of nice.

I bought some things for my sister's mother-in-law's birthday party on Saturday. I have Saturday off!!! That doesn't happen often. Nice to be going to a party for Rhoda. She is a lovely lady, very generous of heart. It surprises me that someone can be like that. People say I'm nice but I would never be as nice and generous as Rhoda is. Sometimes I think I'm too broken to be that open any more.

My Mother is doing the controlling thing again. If I opted for a lobotomy she could just sweep me along and I'd do everything the way she wants, when she wants and how she wants. If only I could stop all these urges to try to be a person. How silly of me. Ugh! How can you tell your Mother she's overly controlling? Especially when I have no where else to go? Of course, I can always be that bag lady I know I can be. I'm already in training for the part. Just look at my car. Full of stuff my Mother decided to get rid of for me. How kind, how can I ever .... I don't even know. Too bad you can't just stop things for awhile and think. Time just keeps flowing on, you're really just a pebble in it's way.

I know what that title means. You can guess at it, but I don't feel like writing about it. Well, I do but I don't feel like thinking about it all in depth tonight. I just don't have time to spare for my own feelings.

I wrote a bit of sarcastic (mostly) blabberation for the BackWash Feminists in Makeup community.

Bastard

Overlook the fact that I'm not as cute as GK. You're stuck with me this time. Yes, the backseat driver is taking over. Suffer the poor reader.

As usual, I come with no point in mind. If you've ever read my column you're probably used to that by now.

What's on my mind as I type this is 'poor bastard' and 'moody bastard' just bastard in general. Have you found yourself referring to one or more men in your life as a bastard? I have. It's kind of amazing how much better saying one word can make you feel. Don't believe me? Try it.

Think of the one you love, yeah, that guy. Now call him a bastard. (Not to his face or in his hearing, that just takes all the fun out of it when he gets all peeved and you have to listen to the bastard bitch about you for an hour. What a mood killer, eh?). You can even pick a subspecies of bastard. My personal favourite is moody bastard, but to each her own.

The trick is that you have to say it out loud. No whispered or thought only bastard allowed. It doesn't work if you hide it. Go ahead, say it a few times. Give it a flourish!

It really does work. Of course, it doesn't change anything, he's still a bastard. But, it does make you feel like you're giving the bastard a little of his own bastardy back.

Damn bastard!

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agingyoungrebel

I love and respect both you and GK as the persons you are. I've never thought about who would be "cuter" (although I have to admit I had naughtier thoughts about the Ladies over on the "red side")...

Your "blabberation" is REALLY feminist, because it can be used by both sexes (= equality!) if "bastard" is substituted by "bitch" (or something similar). Anyway, I had a good laugh with it.

Sometimes the days are like the ocean. They roll and wave together to be lost in the depths.

Labour Day today. I'm not working at the store but I'm about to start making apple pies with my Mom. The rest of them are coming to eat the pies, they almost never, ever come to make the pies. Neither Mom or I feel like making pies today.

Anyway, I guess I will have time to be alone later. I did get out shopping for the groceries but somehow that doesn't seem to count.

Sometimes it takes perseverance to find what you are looking for online. Usually I have good luck with that. The secret is finding just the right term/ phrase to search for. Once you hit it right you will have tons of links to sift through. Meanwhile you have tons of dross to try to figure out.

Tonight I'm looking for a business which makes jewellry (necklaces, earrings, etc) out of wood, seeds and anything else along those natural Earthy lines. I found a site which falls into Kareems interests. "For snorters, smokers and sex maniacs" Not that Kareem is a sex maniac, as far as I know. :)

Anyway, still looking for my own link. That seed jewelry, you know.