I like thinking about the possibilities without having to know or consider all the cold, hard facts. I like thinking about time travel, robots, aliens and my favourite… how civilization staggers upright after an end of the world catastrophe. It’s all creative ideas. True, it should grounded in facts somewhere along the way. But that doesn’t mean it has to be taken 100% seriously either. It should make your mind work, make you wonder.

If you could time travel where would you go, past or future? One of the things that bugs me most about eventually dying is not being here. Think of all the things I will be missing. It’s so unfair. That’s why I would go into the future. I want to see what gets invented. Like reading ahead to see how a really good book ends. Only, we assume, there really is no end to this story.

I want to believe in aliens too. It just seems silly to think that of all the stars and all those planets we are the only one capable of supporting life. Quite likely we are arrogant enough to assume all that life is very much like our own, breathing air, washing in water and walking around on land. What if life really was something that would fry our brain cells just trying to understand it.

Other stuff, like the paranormal interests me too. I’d like to think dragons are out there. I don’t believe it but I prefer to keep the possibility open. Why close that door completely if I don’t have to? Ghosts spook me, I do believe I have seen something, had some contacts in that direction. I don’t want to further those kind of contacts. I believe there is a lot we still have to learn about our own human brains and it’s very likely psychic powers are up there floating around in your very own grey matter. We just don’t know how to work it, no one has the instruction manual. Would you actually read it, if you had one?

I wouldn’t. It would kind of spoil it, to know everything and have all the answers too soon. Someday people (or whatever we become) will know the things we only wish we knew. But, we won’t be here. I wonder if there was a woman living a thousand years ago who was sitting doing her laundry one day and thinking, wishing she could take a peek into life a thousand years ahead. I wish she could be here for coffee and chat. It would be quite the conversation.

This is from my old Live Journal posts.

I have a new short hair cut, I don't like it. I miss my hair. It's too short to tie it up or clip it up or anything but let it hang where it may. I feel like I'm carrying a sleeping dog around on top of my head.

It doesn't help that I turned 42 at the end of 2006 and today I am at the very bottom of my coffee supplies. At least I can fix the coffee thing. I really do think this is as old as I should have to get now. I look ok still. I am just starting to wrinkle. The grey hairs are at the point where they are annoying but not yet really frustrating. I'd like to lose pounds but that I can do, being 42 doesn't especially make that a problem. Being 52 might and ten years doesn't seem like all that much when I consider I've lived four brackets of ten years so far and I don't feel I've really been around all that long. Just think of everything going on in the world, in the present and the past. I really will be ticked off when I die cause I won't see the future and all the changes and inventions to come. What a rip off! It's like starting a great book but having the writer tell you he isn't letting you read past the halfway point. Someone really should do something about that.

Comment from sheherazahde

![Hi,

I saw that you are the main Wicca writer for Suite101.

I do most of my journaling on LJ. and I didn't see how to get a feed from Blogger to LJ so I just friended your LJ.

We seem to a lot in common, I thought I would check you out for a while.]()

Here we are, not getting any younger and maybe a little more shapely and curvy than we’d like to be. We know the route to being thinner is diet and exercise. The problem is finding the motivation for this self deprivation and torture.

Future MILFs is an online group of women (not the only one) but I really like the appeal to a woman’s sexiness. Think of yourself as sexy rather than an overweight, older woman trying to get in shape. Think of all the head you will turn once you become a hot, sexy woman. Think of how great it will feel to turn those heads. Maybe this is the very motivation you need to get started and stick with a plan (your choice of plan) in order to become your hot, sexy self.

The Future MILF Club started as a weight loss group. Every Friday the Future MILFs post our "Weekly Weigh In". It includes pounds lost this week and total lost. You do NOT have to put your weight if you don't want to. Then include a little blurb on how your week went. If you dorked out when you got your gold star or stripped down to a tank top and bike shorts, a la The Biggest Loser, for your weigh in.

You can do any weight loss program that works for you so long as you keep your weigh ins honest. We want to know if you couldn't walk away from the Twinkie cause it will make the rest of us feel better for licking the peanut butter jar.

But as the club evolved we've all decided that we should open it up to people who are trying to get their sexy groove back in other ways too. Ladies who want to work on dressing like they did before kids used their shirt as a booger rag. Or maybe someone who wants to actually look forward to sex again but hasn't been able find their mojo since they had kids. Whatever your goal towards MILF-dom, post your progress on your blog every Friday. And post your failures too, it helps all of us to share.

But most importantly, keep a sense of humor. The name of our club was chosen in a tongue-in-cheek way to remind us of that.

You wouldn’t know it by standing over my shoulder any time but I am trying to write a book. It’s not easy. I already have the general idea for the story, the characters, and even the time to work on it. The problem is converting what made a good short story into a long story. I am a great short story or article writer. I’m not so successful at going the distance though.

I’ve read various good ideas for getting past this. Basically, they suggest making a plan, an outline, storyboard, whatever you choose to call it. Then filling in the spaces between. Someone else who knows me suggested I just think of it as a lot of short stories that fit together. This almost works for me. It would work I’m sure if I just settled down and did it. I wander off or go blank each time I’m here, ready to start.

Kind of sad considering I spent a few years writing a column, website and newsletter as a resource to other writers. Shouldn’t I have all the answers and be a perfect illustration of just what a writer can do when they do it all right? Guess not. I’m going to have to let myself be imperfect and go from there. Kind of nice to admit you’re flawed, much less pressure. Yet I still need to get to work on writing that book. Maybe I will do my own personal NaNoWriMo, or something along those lines.

Do you recycle your books once you have read and finished with them? I tend to keep most of my non-fiction books but I take all the fiction to a used/ second hand bookstore. I exchange them for new books (new to me). It’s also a really great way to find older books by an author you have just discovered. I’m often lucky and can pick up all the old books for half or less of what I would have paid in the bookstore, if I could find them all in a new bookstore. Stores selling new books can’t commit a lot of shelf space to the older books which won’t sell as well as whatever is the latest.

I also like recycling the books cause there are a lot of trees in those pages. It’s great if I’m not the only one to use that book. I wonder how many readers a book gets sometimes. I tried Book Crossing but no one has ever reported a book I shipped out with the BookCrossing information on it. I have pretty much given up on it. Besides, the second hand stores didn’t really care for the books I had written the BookCrossing tag into.

What do you do with books once you’ve read them? My Mother likes to read them, sleep with them, bathe with them. In the end the books are really dog eared. I’ve rescued a few before she throws them away but she likes to be the last one to read each book. Even though she knows it’s not the best choice as far as the environment and that she could get new books by exchanging them, she just likes to do it her way. I didn’t try too hard to reform her, what can you really do with your Mother?