Listening to people, family, and the media go on about your life and health as you get older, some days it feels like living with a jack-in-the-box. Any time it could pop up and that's it your time is up. I'm going to be 60 at the end of this year. I do wonder how many days I still have. I don't feel stressed about it but, I don't like it.

I wonder if there have been people who also didn't like the unknown date lurking in their future. Has anyone ever decided they didn't like the suspense and chosen their own expiry date? Not due to despair, or ill health. Just because you don't want to leave it random and unknown.

I don't think its suicide. It's not a decision made due to sadness, or ill health. I don't think its morbid either. Younger people may see it that way. Your experience is different. But, unless immortality becomes an option, I think its entirely reasonable.

Compare it to doctors deciding a birth date for babies by scheduling a caesarian for women. They don't know what the real birth date would have been, if the baby had been left in the womb until it made its own way, in its own time. I think choosing your own death date would be the same really.

You could have all your affairs in order, make sure your will is done right, write instructions for your funeral, burial, or whatever you want done with your leftover body. Decide where your possessions go, are distributed, knowing there isn't much of anything you can take with you. Spend that extra time with family and friends you've kept meaning to visit but didn't make time for. If you are a bucket list person, finish your list. Find a good spot and plant a tree! Otherwise, do those things you'd like to have done, travel to those places you would have liked to see, knowing your plan for how many days you've decided you have left.

In the end, you might choose to extend the date. There would be not reason you couldn't. That alone would be a good reason not to tell anyone else about what you're doing and the cut off date. Who wants someone reminding you about it. You might change your mind entirely. But, if you wanted to stick to your date and not keep waiting for it to come along and happen to you - why shouldn't a person take their own fate in their own hands and choose their last day for themselves?

About me:

From Ontario, Canada volunteer with Ontario Barn Preservation urban (rural) exploration photographer web producer: writer, editor, content creator, promoter, and moderator for my own sites and others ASCII artist (see above image) solitary, eclectic Witch writer of old fashioned handwritten letters sent by snail mail previously a candystriper (hospital volunteer) previously a cashier/ customer service clerk for a large Canadian retail chain

Studied Corporate Communications at Centennial College Warden Woods Campus

At the end of the day, boredom is more about you than it is about the external environment. If you’re in a healthy place psychologically and there’s not much going on in your surroundings, that’s called “relaxation,” not “boredom.” You should try it sometime.

from Bustle: Boredom is the Worst Modern Emotion and Here's Why

People who claim to get bored easily  have always irritated me. I think it takes someone who actually is boring to be bored easily. How lacking in imagination and intelligence they must be if they can't find something interesting to do, something interesting to learn or watch or clean up or... the list is endless.

I tend to read about female villains with a grain of salt. If I read between the lines and think from a fresh perspective (not an antique male view) then I wonder. In history the winners tell the story. Seldom were women the winners in history. The forgotten, the ignored, the blamed... I'm not man bashing. I'm just rethinking the stories which have been passed down from generations of people.

Anyway, Morganna from the tales of King Arthur and Merlin, could have been a queen from another place, not a sister of someone, not a Witch (in a wicked way). We don't know. We don't even know the right spelling of her name, however it was originally.

I like sweatshirts, they’re comfortable, usually warm, and easy to wash. But, why do they add hoods to them? The hoods pull down on the back and leave the back of my neck cold. I try different things, like rolling it up and pulling the string tight to keep it from dragging down my back. I’ve tried stuffing it inside down the back. But, none of these stay put well enough. I’ve read about people cutting off the hood and sewing the remains together to make a collar. This seems the best solution. I haven’t done it yet.

Mostly I avoid buying sweatshirts with hoods. That works better than anything else. But, I wonder, does anyone actually wear the hood? Not as a fashion thing, but for practical reasons, or just because the hood is comfortable, or warmer? Maybe this is something men, or people with short hair would like. With longer hair the hood doesn’t work. Not for me anyway.

In the end, I wonder why they add the hood. There must have been some reason for it.