Originally posted to Adult BackWash: Wednesday October 29, 2003  

The best part of my orgasm is the length of time I can hold onto it right after it starts. At first there is the build up, sometimes it builds slowly. Then that moment when time stops, that little death. It does seem you could die at that moment and not even know it. Then my orgasm starts, the juices flow and the muscles of my vagina contract over and over and over. I'm not sure if that's what they call a multi orgasm. The best part is how long I can keep it going before my fingers get tired or I just can't take any more without becoming vocal. I've spent too much time living with other people to let myself be loud.

My standard method is clit fingering these days. I'm an expert on my own clit and how to touch it just right. I don't get finicky and try different fingering. The same old rubs, strokes and touches work just fine. At some point I don't know exactly how I'm doing it just that I don't want to stop.

The clit stroking is nice too. Even though it's not the main event I do enjoy the build up, that feeling of getting wetter and tighter. Once in a while it's not enough and I want something inside my vagina. That's just the odd time and I often wonder if it's linked to my menstrual cycle in some way. We do get typical skin break outs, cravings, tender breasts and such just before it starts. Likely we can be different in our arousal too.

Do men have real orgasms? Or is it more of a sperm release than a whole body experience? I know men traditionally fall asleep after sex. I do too. Unless I'm too tired to stay awake I have an orgasm every night when I go to bed. I always thought most women did the same. It's a great way to fall asleep, doesn't cost a thing and is good for your body and mind.

Last night I went on a spending spree at Chapters, the mega bookstore in this area. I went in for The Writers magazine and came out many dollars lighter. (Debit cards are a blessing and a curse). I bought a new thesaurus which I already love and A Writer's Book of Days which I'm building up into love for. Judy Reeves wrote it and I'll look her up online later.

Anyway, there is so much encouragement, inspiration and creativity in this book for writers. I highly recommend you find it at your local bookstore.

I've paraphrased and added my thoughts to one of her articles. This is one of her essays which caused me to buy the book.

Honour Yourself as a Writer

Name yourself a writer. Give your writing preference over your day job, affirm the place it holds in your life. Tell them you're a freelance writer when someone asks what you do. Let yourself be proud to be a writer, whether you're raking in the bucks from writing or not. Don't put your writing in second place, like a hobby you might mention if someone asks. Honour yourself as a writer, just like Judy Reeves says!

Make a place for your writing, furnish it with materials that support you and your writing. Keep the space sacred and go there joyfully. I especially like this idea from her book. Make yourself a writing alter, take notes from the Pagans on making an alter. But, whatever you do make the space where you write special, meaningful, uniquely you.

Get the equipment and accoutrements you need. Do you really let yourself spend a enough on what you need to write? Don't over spend but let yourself have what you need to write well. Don't give it hobby status if you don't want to keep writing as a hobby.

Make time for studying and practicing your craft: attend writing groups, workshops, writer's conferences, classes and lectures. If you're too busy to go far try a few writing email lists. See which one works for you and then become a regular (don't just lurk).

Schedule time with other writers. Find someone else who writes and plan time together to talk about writing and have some fun. Don't let yourself become too isolated from others who write and think about writing.

Read your writing to others. Say it aloud to those who can appreciate it. Read it at writing meetings, family gatherings and no occasion at all.

Transfer your writing from your notebook to the computer and print it out. Everything looks more professional in print. Save your writing in printed format and keep it all organized in files. There is no reason you can't even make up a zine yourself. Just add a little desktop publishing and you can create your own literary publication, starring you.

Submit material for publication. In spite of yourself and your fears respect your work in producing the writing and the writing itself and submit it for publications. Give yourself a chance, it only costs a stamp, some paper and the time to research your markets.

Celebrate when you've completed a work or hit a significant marker. Take a road trip, make a fancy coffee, get a manicure, soak in the tub, call a friend, buy that new thesaurus you wanted, whatever makes a celebration to you. You deserve it.

Accept compliments gracefully. Don't become your own worst critic when someone says your writing touched them, was a great read or made them think. Instead say thanks and give them more to read, point them to your website, the latest publication to buy your work, whatever you have to offer. Instead of denying your work, promote it.

News flash! I'm tired. :D I'm always tired, that's not news. Some days lots of thing happen but you don't feel any inspiration to write about them. So, here are the facts. I went out to a Pagan store, chatted and bought a silver pentagram to wear on the chain I bought at Zellers last week. I bought a red jasper stone which she made into a pendant for me too. She did a great job weaving the silver wire around the stone, I love it. The Hedge Witch was the store. I managed to chat and discover someone else who doesn't believe in the Goddess either. That was a bonus.

Anyway, from there I drove to the movie theatre only I left as it looked closed. Even after going out for lunch there were no cars there and it was late in the day for them to still be closed. After lunch and checking the theatre again I drove across the street to all the new stores being built. There was a Michael's Craft store so I went in and spent more money. I bought some Christmas craft beading with safety pins kits. I'd like to get into wire beading stuff. Not just beading, any goof any thread beads and tie a knot to keep them from sliding off. The wire stuff looks interesting and not too expensive. The biggest expense would be the copper (or silver) wire itself and the tools (wire cutters and pliers).

I drove home, wished I was in the right lane to hit the Chapters bookstore for the new issue of The Writer magazine. But, I'm working tomorrow and can pop in after work. I came home and Mom wanted to go out for dinner and look at a house in Innisfil which calls itself a town but isn't even on the map as a town. It seems to be a county. It's just one more odd map related issue. So we did go out, found the house and Mom is already coming up with reasons why it's not the right one. I'm sure she will find her right one but (for myself) it would be really nice to know where we are moving to.

Which brings up the whole issue of 'why am I moving with them'. I don't especially want to. That wasn't my intention when I came up here after the divorce. I don't even want to write more about this tonight. I feel like I'm writing to please you (the anonymous busy body masses) not for myself. You always screw up when you put your reader too far ahead of your own self. At least for a journal.

Well, I'm tired. Seems like I've typed that a few thousand times this year alone. Nightie night.

PS- Pat, if you read this before I email you. I got the CD's yesterday. Thanks. :) I haven't even started listening to them. Not in the right mood. Can anyone spend a few hours with their Mother and come away feeling sexy? Of course, now I feel guilty for typing that. It's all a circle.

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agingyoungrebel

I hope you enjoy the music.

Are you superstitous? Don't deny it too quickly. There are sorts of little things we do without even considering them to be a superstition. Do you read horoscopes? How much credit do you give to them? Would you consider your day not as great if you have a poor horoscope? Kind of superstitious aren't you?

Wicca and Witchcraft are full of superstition though we might deny it. I think, Pagans in general, try to distance themselves from the occult and the superstitions which have all gotten a bad reputation.

It's funny cause the very stuff they deny is partly what their beliefs are based on. Occult was a word long before Wicca. Meanwhile, I expect superstitions have been around right from the first people on the planet.

Most people think about superstitions around weddings, births and deaths, the major life events. I think those are the times when we are most off balance, in need of some extra sign or guidance that everything will be ok. That's really what a superstition is. Just that extra assurance that you're going to be all right.

Of course, some superstitions are safety precautions. You should avoid walking under ladders, breaking mirrors and squishing spiders. Not because you fear having a run of bad luck but because it's less likely ladders will fall on your head, glass will cut your hand and spiders are needed for eating other bugs. It's all logical and reasonable.

So go ahead and avoid stepping on cracks, tossing salt over your shoulder and so on, guilt free. Superstitions might be soffed but they have their own purpose and history. As long as they harm none what's the harm in humouring your own superstitions?