The closest I came before that was reading some of my Dad's Gor books and finding trashy magazines my younger brother had hidden. These were geared to men's fantasies of course.
I'm still learning what my inner most desires are. Bondage certainly, I'm not sure about spankings or a lot of the other "traditional" pain/ pleasure ideas. I am willing to experience most of these things. Except something like being whipped, that would be very painful. …more
I began my BDSM journey, I now understand, as myself. I'm still myself. Along the way I looked into different roles and labels and tried to fit myself into them. That was a mistake, a misplacement of myself. But, it was interesting and all adds flavour to the journey, making it a chance to discover who I am.
Here are conversations I had through forums and email and a post I wrote at points during my discovery. (It will be at least two posts).
I've been trying to think of a simple way to explain how I feel to be a switch. I thought about buttons, the kind you find with your partner to drive them wild with lust. Well, in my case the buttons connect to a switch like a train track. Depending on which buttons are pushed my switch changes from the submissive track to the Dominant one. Other ways to look at it: I want to wear someone's collar and belong to that person, I also want someone to be owned by me and wear the collar I give them. My bondage fantasies are about being taken captive and taking a captive of my own. …more
Today 9Rules is down. I don't know if it is gone, or just lost.
When my site was accepted in 2009 I was pretty happy. Even though the network had been backsliding awhile - there was hope for a fresh revamp. It didn't quite seem to ever really happen though. I'm still part of 9Rules and I'm not giving up on it. But, I'm disappointed. Tonight, seeing it come up 404, I'm not feeling a lot of faith in it.
Just for inspiration, here are the original 9 rules:
According to the about page 9rules is a collection of blogs, showcasing the best content of the Independent web. 9rules was created in 2003, around 9 rules:
Love what you do. Never stop learning. Form works with function. Simple is beautiful. Work hard, play hard. You get what you pay for. When you talk, we listen. Must constantly improve. Respect your inspiration.
SuiteU is closing and will disappear soon. There is a lot of great content there. People who wrote the courses put a lot into them. It's a shame for them to just disappear. Here is the free ecourse for Horror Literature. I'd like to write horror but so far it all starts out all wrong for me. I need a new way to write it.
Horror Literature By Catherine Bitzer
Introduction
Welcome to the lair of horror literature! Dark minds over centuries have scared the wits out of their readers by harping on our most subconscious of fears. Below is a description of what you might expect to find in the course.
FEARS: CHILDREN AND ADULTS
Fear, the greatest ally of horror literature, has had a home in the human heart since the beginning of time. According to H.P. Lovecraft, a horror fiction master whom you will learn more about in the course, said that fear is the oldest and deepest emotion of humankind. And he is right.
Consider for example your childhood. Were you afraid? What were you afraid of? Abandonment? The death of your parents? These are the two greatest childhood fears. …more